end of may

last day on #may well i close this month with another wish #junewish it is.. still will stick with my resolution, going to pass this BC training program is for sure, i need the bless from you guys.. especially you..
wish you were here pop.

3rd time at GA

2905 - this is my 3rd time at Grand Angkasa.. still using the same track like last week and some of the members was improved. so glad to see that, thou not so many were came into the class, about 14 members but it was fun.. :D
well well well june is coming in a moment, new release is on its way, new moves, new combos, new tracklists..

learn n do more

5 category i shud kept in mind : fitness magic, technique, choreography, coaching and connecting.
arghhh got lack on my fitness *sigh* if i could say so, "my battery drained so fast" also my technique, still need to learn more bout it, geez sometimes i can get to curly and my feet doesn't want to move as i said. bout the choreo... hahahag.. i can missed the bit oo, too fast it is or sometimes i can forgot the combo as well.. :D for coaching and connecting ermmm can't say so much about it., still learning.. :)

BODY COMBAT 52 tracklist

as usual.. the tracklist is on.. :D be ready in few more weeks..


1a: Rain Over Me (Technoposse Remix Edit) – Love Empire
1b: Sexy And I Know It (DJ Shocker Extended Remix) – DJ Shocker feat. Chani
2: Crazy Train – Max Motor
3: When I Close My Eyes (Darren Styles Remix) – Dougal & Gammer feat. Jenna
4: Bring Me To Life (Thomas Petersen vs. Gainworx Remix Edit) – Jan Wayne
5: Passenger (AdF Mix) – DJ Gollum
6: Ring The Alarm – Beyoncé
7: Seek And Destroy – Agent Orange
8: Falling (Breeze Remix) – Breeze vs Barley feat. Taya
9: First Of The Year (Equinox) – Skrillex
10: The Fighter – Gym Class Heroes feat. Ryan Tedder 

i don't know

i don’t know.

stop questioning, because you are the answer.

stop whining, because you are the problem.

stop crying, because you are the wound.

stop doubting, because you are the one who is going to pull the trigger.

stop looking, because you know where to find me.

then let’s start it all over again, from the beginning.

BC session at GACH Medan

hooaaaa.... moaarrnniinnggg.... today got schedule to do coaching at Grand Aston. not many were attend maybe it is too early.. hahahag... walaooeee.. schedule was meant to start at 7.30am but delayed till 8.10am, got several troubleshooting at audio problem. i only use 5 track including cooling down for today, 1-give me everything, 2-kungfu fighting, 3-what's up, 4-black pearl, 5-breath easy. the participants was so excited but some of them were like craving for help.. lol.. but i like it.. keep it up astonished. i'll see you guys again..

variations

it's bullshit to think of friendship and romance as being different. no they're not. they're just variations of the same love. variations of the same desire to be close.

what is on your mind ?

i know i will just swallow those words back whenever i got them on the tip of my tongue, waiting to be said. it feels weird to be myself, knowing nothing about you, but also claiming that i am the man in the world who loves you the most. sometimes you smile and i have no idea what is it that makes you draw such a lovely curve on your face. sometimes you give me a straight face that makes me wondering if i look bad, or if i did something wrong.

i feel silly, i always do. but feelings are silly, anyway. especially something that comes from irrational things. love, it even sounds so stupid whenever people say it carefully, like the world is going to break into seven pieces. now you try to say “LOVE” in front of the mirror and look how silly you are. ….. well of course.

and i, again, jumped into other thing whenever i talk about something else. and i lost my mood to write about the main reason why i write this post.

i want to be able to see things from your point of view. even more, i want to know you better.

until the day

one day, when i am a braver man, i will tell her these things, and then i will look her in the eye tell her i love her and ask her to be only mine. but until that day, we're just friends.

what a day

2205 - not a very good day for me, starting the day early in the morning with a bit embarrassing.. guess what, zipper from my pants was broken and i don't know it till i arrived at office *sigh* not only that, yet again i forgot to bring my wallet too.. ohh holy crap..
well let's forget about that.. hahahag.. ho ho ho *mimic-ingsanta* this is my 2nd time as a trainer at GA. members who was attend were not many, but thanx for several of my great ladies from CF came by and enliven the class. feel so great about that *bigsmile*.. during class i got some accident also, fell down from the stage.. dunno if it's too small or what, but i guess i need to fit myself into that stage.. finally i can wipe off my  nervous for today.. glad glad glad.. :D

dinner time

2105 - got invitation from my friend's wedding at Taipan restaurant. got lot of conversation over there with my gym fellas. blah blah blah and blah.. meeting with old friends also one of my mentor. before the party is on, we're already got ourself busy with photos.. hahahag.. well other people who sees us will thought that we're so narcissistic.. LOL.. hey hey cause we are "celebrity" rotfl.. pose there pose here, making fun etc.
feel so glad when we're gather around, especially with you bunnies. :) i know it hurts as i can see it through your eyes. tough girl you are. :)

'just the three of us'

bunny

this month i feels like being born again.. fill my days with lot of smile and laugh. i would have say that this month i sing a lot. it was all because of you bunny.. :)
0305 - 0505 - 1005 - 1105 - 1605 - 1705 - 1805 - 1905 - 2005 - do you still remember what happen on those day bunny? i still do remember it lo.. *smile*  0505 - 1605 - 1705 has the best moment. sing a lot on those day.. watching movie, rafting, dinner etc.
but these few days lately i don't see you smile perfectly, i know that it must be tough to faced it. knowing that you're heart was still have him made me a lil bit confuse. i don't know if you can feel it or not but i'm asking you to hold my hands. when the pain is too deep and your eyes can't weep. i just want you to know that i'm here for you.

i am

do not stand at my grave and weep, i am not there, i do not sleep, i did not die. i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glint on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain. when you wake in the morning hush, i am the swift, uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight. i am the soft starlight at night. 

miss you

“I miss everything about spending quality times with you, even when it only includes random jokes and pointless chat. I miss talking to you about everything and not being scared nor worried about you judging me, because i know you won’t. I miss you.”

place in my heart

“in our time together, you claimed a special place in my heart, one i'll carry with me forever and that no one can ever replace.”  ― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

smile everday

i was smiling yesterday, i am smiling today and i will smile tomorrow. simply because life is too short to cry for anything.

jumping off the hill..

1705 - the day i've been waiting for.., got time to play some rafting today.. weeeee so excited to do it. you'd called me at 5.20+ to wake me up., thx for that otherwise i can be late.. hahahag.. had some breakfast n then drive to your place and then we go. having so much fun over there, but i still worried a bit bout your safety.. well the most exciting thing to do is jump off from the hill, only jump two times from this trip *sigh*.. seeing you getting so excited make me a lil bit confused... hahahag.. coz i knowed that you usually don't have any intention to do any outbound things.. am i right?  the memorable thing is when you said '' wo pha-pha ar" hahahag.. it is so funny..;p

this day if i could said is the best day on may. :) the trip was fun, exciting, got so much fun with you guys..

the crow

If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever. --"The Crow"

my journey as an BC instructor begin_01

yep, like i wish for this year that i want to be a body combat instructor, has finally begin. :) even i still haven't got my license i can do teach at one of the fitness club. well it's only for trial to attract other members but still i can learn some coaching and connecting lesson over there. really hope that this june i can pass the training and have my license with good result. *pray*

oukay cause this is my first time to be an instructor, i could have said that while i do teaching it is so nervous till i'd got a few mistake on my choreo.. ooohh crap.. thx god it's their first time doing combat so i could write up myself a choreo.. hahahag *fiuhh*

some of the members was so excited to join the class. they said that they can sweat a lot.. hahahag... just wish that i could keep on teaching at that place. :) future i'm going to teach at CF.., hope so..

proverb

"perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy." -- Eskimo Proverb

"It’s the tragedy of loving, you can’t love anything more than something you miss."  - Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer

that moment when i put song in repeat

where memories are playing backwards in my mind, projecting themselves on everything i see, where my coffee cup tastes differently (or maybe i keep on missing things) or maybe i just can take them in the same way anymore.

where life is a broken mirror, and your reflections are always different, depends on which piece of the mirror you pick as your point of view.

where questions are there to be asked, and they’re mostly rhetorical.

dear, i miss your smile, and how your eyes talk to me.

the simplest answer

this is me, whenever i’m trying to answer the question about the reason why i love you.

i close my eyes.... and think....

it must be the way you see me through my flaws.

it must be the way you smile at me.

it must be the way you give the feeling.

it must be the way you explain your point of view about the world.

it must be the way you put your clothes on.

it must be the way you move your lips to tell me how much you love me.

it must be the way you look so charming whenever you get too serious.

it must be the way you make some joke over things.

i’ll end up thinking about more and more and more reasons for me to falling in love with you

and yet, the answer has always been so simple.

it must be because it’s you.

"I go crazy wondering what there is to really see

 Did the night just take up your time ‘Cos it means more to me

 Sometimes I forget what I’m doing

 I don’t forget what I want

 Regret what I’ve done

 Regret you, I couldn’t go on"

 - Hall & Oates

"I hope one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love."  - Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

think like a hero

“Think like a hero, work like an artist. If the end is helpfulness, that’s the hero mind. If the means is exploration and learning, that’s the artist’s mind. When kindly attention meets curiosity, you move gracefully through the world.”

kingdom of God

The Kingdom of God is inside you, and all around you, not in mansions of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me. --"Stigmata"