back again after several months..

yohooo.. i'm back again with my blog.. :) miss this part.. the old me have back again.. well... till now i'm still working out to become a Body Combat instructor, though way to reach there. After few months practicing more and more, now i got chance to coach 2 tracks. Need lot of practice to be in this level. Technique - Patience - Ambition - Knowledge - Coaching - How to connect with people., that is what i'd need to learn till now.

No matter how good we are now, but yet we still need more improvement.

every part of you inside my world

sometimes i hear your voice before i wake up in the morning. they always trigger my heart to beat faster, but mostly end up with the empty feeling i have in my chest.

sometimes i see your smile when i close my eyes while trying to have some deep breath. i wonder what spell you put on me so you can easily comfort my exhausted brain with a single face expression. i’m left with a big question mark as a company.

sometimes i imagine your expression when you see my clothes. and well wearing things is not as easy as it was.

sometimes i have you in mind, out of nowhere, and i suddenly feel angry. feels like want to bite your arm. pinch your cheeks. kick your butt and tell the imaginary you to fuck off. i hate to admit how often i have you in mind, i’m upset by my own thoughts whenever i think of you and i know that you don’t do the same. then i feel sad.

sometimes i have you on my wish list. sometimes i put your wish there. your wishes become my wishes.

there are every little piece of you inside my world. you’re a part of it. my favorite part of it.


sk-2011

i could only wish

you can’t have too much wishes, can you?

i’m not going to put this night as something memorable. 1 AM and i’m still struggling to close my eyes, knowing how tired my body is at the moment, yet not being able to sleep. i want to blame it to everything but i ended up blaming myself.

i tried to close my eyes, then some memories of things recalled. about how my days could have been something better. about so many small things i’ve missed for being an ignorant. about the food. about you. and you know i will talk about the last thing i mentioned.

the feeling i have on my chest, something like it wants to get out, it’s always like this when i’m having you in mind. how i feel it’s just plain hard for me to breathe. how every tip of my body is aching for your presence. how i suddenly just can think about you.

i could have laughed at myself for being like those scene in drama. but it can’t be helped anyway, i bet people will do the same thing when they have felt the love so strong like what you’ve been giving to me. the difference is only that i express it exaggeratedly.

i could only wish God ain’t fooling us around.

… uuummm well, not only that. i wish you were here, so i can hug you tighly, lay a kiss on your forehead and wish you good night.

i could only wish.

Won't Last Long

Everything in life is temporary.

So if things are going good, enjoy it because it won't last forever.

And if things are going bad, don't worry. It can't last forever either.

Love Somebody - Maroon 5

Love Somebody - Maroon 5

I know your inside, you're feeling so hollow
And it's a hard pill for you to swallow
But if I fall for you, i'll never recover
If I fall for you, i'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

You're such a hard act for me to follow
Love me today don't leave me tomorrow, yeah
But if I fall for you, i'll never recover
If I fall for you, i'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh

I don't know where to start, i'm just a little lost
I wanna feel like we never gonna ever stop
I don't know what to do, i'm right in front of you
Asking you to stay, you should stay, stay with me tonight, yeah

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh

You can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

BODYPUMP 83 - SIZZLER

BODY PUMP 83 Tracklist

BODYPUMP 83 tracklist

1. Set it Off – Pimp Dawg
2. Summer Of 69 – Yesterday Affair
3. Turn Up The Music – Chris Brown
4. Set Fire To The Rain – Fizzy Deejay
5. Glad You Came – Toy Hypo
6. Stronger (What Doesn’t Kill You) – Kelly Clarkson
7. Turn The Tide – Manian & Aila
8. C’est Bleu - Scooter Feat. Vicky Leandros
9. When We Stand Together – Nickelback
10. Better Than I Know Myself – Adam Lambert

Bonus 3: Paradise – Psychic Stars

BODYCOMBAT 53 - SIZZLER

it's only a teaser.. :)

BODY COMBAT 53 tracklist

BODYCOMBAT 53 tracklist :

1a: Written In The Stars (Sunny Dee Remix) – Jason Born
1b: Are You Ready For This – Friday Night Posse
2: Rock N Roll All Night – Kicking Import
3: Shine On (Hixxy Remix) – R.I.O.
4: Sweet Dreams – Mislead Lizard
5: True Believer (Styles and Breeze Remix) – E-type
6: Swagger Jagger – Cher Lloyd
7: Blade (Re Con Remix) – Ali Payami vs. Aquagen & Warp Brothers
8: Summer Rain - Breeze vs. Brad Sure Feat Katie Halliday
9: Bangarang – Skrillex feat. Sirah
10: Is Anybody Out There? – Soldier TV

Honestly, I do care

To be honest with you.
I don't have the words to make you feel better.But I do have the arms to give you a hug.Ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about.And I have a heart.A heart that's aching to see you smile again. 

Like a camera

A heart is like a camera capture.

It's hard to manually focus on someone when you open it wide.
But once you achieve it, you know. the rest will become blurred.

Module Training Body Combat

and the day has come 30th June 2012, it's the day i had my Body Combat Training with master trainer Judy King and Robin Sinurat. we got 11 people who'd joined this program. :)

1st day - was the tiredness day.. we're all had to learned about the right technique, throw away all the old habits, testing our fitness. well it is so tired..

2nd day -  all of us got the assessment. I'm going to take track 5 from BC 52. it's a short track but it's challenging as well.. :) Poor me for today, i had a lil injury on my hamstring.. geezzz.. 

3rd day -  the last day, the last assessment, the last drill, the final result. All of us was so tense today.. The tiredness was the Body Combat Challenge ohhh booy, looks like fast and fit class but this one was so challenging.. The last assessment i got was track 6 from BC52, well it is so killing me, fight with my hamstring till i forgot the choreo.. ohh crap.. looks like i'm done, but the end result was I pass as trainee.. yooossssshh.. all my hard work, all of the courage that you guys give me.. it works. Love you guys. 

a week from today :)

yosssshhhhh.. only a week left to prepare myself to do Body Combat Training. already have my Training Ticket on my hand now, so it's time to well prepare myself to aim it. :)
going to practice it once more on monday, then go teaching at GA at tuesday and off for the rest of the day. :D
#bigwish to pass it.. need your bless all my fellas.. without you i can't make it..

Pierrot le Fou (1965)

 "Why do you look so sad?"

"Because you speak to me in words, and I look at you with feelings."

i can't believe

i keep playing it inside my head, all that you said to me. i lie awake just to convince myself that this wasn't just a dream. i lost the moment again.. it's all that i can think now.
is your heart taken?
is there somebody else on your mind?
well i'm so sorry, i'm so confused. just tell me am i out of time?
how do you feel about me now?
i can't believe i let you walk away. if i had known then that i'd be feeling this way. if i could replay, i would have never let you go. never let you go.

my review for Body Combat 52

well well... here i am today, after we'd done the new release for Body Combat 52 at Celebrity Fitness Sun Plaza, and now here is what i'm going to give my review :

- track 1 > "warm up" "rain over me", heeeyy is this a warm up track..??? hahahahag... though the song was fun but the choreo was a bit challenging :D already got the jumping jack and shoot moves in the middle of the song.. wahlaoooeee.. #ciaklat ee . uurrmmm upper body done, now it's lower body part "i'm sexy and i know it" wwhooaa this song really make you want to shake your bon bon.. ;p well it's only me to do the wiggle.. hahahag.. this track is so tempting.. start with muay thai hips roll, then move to knee.. i like the way when we do the round house kick and continue to back kick.. usually we change leg position but this one no.. :)

- track 2 > "combat training 1" the double knife strike was a bit confusing at the first., but it's easy when u do it continuously.. from this track it only got one combo.. upper upper hook then round house..

- track 3 > "power training 1" here it is my favorite track from BC52.. boxing training.. start with jab cross, combo with double uppercut right and left.. the 2nd combo was jab jab cross, aim for the head body cross, though it's just a jab but it'll drew your energy out. try to do it with power cross.. you'll sweat all the way and your shoulder will burned hahahag.. #trustme

- track 4 > "combat training 2" whoooaaa.. what i said was this is the start.. this track got lot of kicks, back kick, front kick, knee... the total was 234 kicks.. fantastic!!! guess what, your lower body especially you legs will feels like jelly.. lol... it got 16 back kicks then continue to do kickkata (back kick, double knee, front kick) lot of kick kata here.. sure it burns.. step kick, jump kick.. like Dan said "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but right now you give yourself the gift of the present, good to your body good to your mind, better for your legs"

- track 5 > "power training 2" this track is about speed.. the combo was easy one, double jab uppercut then scissors.. 2 combo we got circuit training, got 4 level in doing jab cross hook.. and ya this song make u want to sing la la la la la la la ..

- track 6 > "combat track 2" the mother of all the track 6 maybe.. :D hip hop capoeira.. whooooaa song from beyonce (ring the alarm) is the most tough song is think, my legs are burning in this track.. T_T need balancing for this track.., non stop moving for your legs till you yelled "AMPUNNNNN".. no esquiva moves but the combo moves is just double front kick, lunges, ginga and then add on side kick (E-kick). it is simple but guess what TOUGH SONG IT IS FOR SURE!!!.... you're butt will look more sexy. :D

- track 7 > "muay thai" 7+ minutes for this track.. O.O" long track for muay thai it is.. easy combo moves (4 jabs then elbow) well then continue to running man.. hahahag.. you can see it's an easy moves aite.. but taste it first.. sure you'll lose your breath over here.. the exciting part from this track is the freestyle moves.. yeaaahhh it's freestyle., you can do any punch, hook, uppercut as you like.. try me.. :p

- track 8 > "power training 3" as usual the last power training track is the longest one than track 3 and 5., start with double jab hook, then add on combo 8 jab cross. feel the rhythm for this track, coz you're already drew all your power before.. well in this track my punch quality was getting weaker.. *sigh* but if you still got the energy, what i'm going to say is to bring it all out for this track..

- track 9 > "conditioning" push up at the first., this will make your arm, your shoulder getting stronger.. then we go continue to sit up.. got single sit up then combo it with C-crunch.. if you want a challenge, do it with robot style cause this song will make you like a robot... it is only what i think.. heheheheg...

- track 10 > "cooldown" nothing to say for this track, just feel the song and do your cooling down moves.. i fell for the song.. cin ho thia ar.. "The Fighter - Gym Class Heroes".

Overall this new release of "Body Combat 52" is killing... hahahag.. oopppss... it's a tough one, tough track, tough choreo, it got so many kicks. Well.. thx to Dan and Rach for this new release., it got awesome track and yes it is also tribute to one of the great Lesmills Instructor "Hernan Lopez".
Last word, prepare your legs before doing this new release.. :p

Next is to wait for another 3 month to have a new release again..

Keep it real and stay with the fight. #kiyakaha

Body Combat 52

With our great instructor mommy Diana

Train Like an athlete

Kings of Convenience

"And your hand is help open, intentionally
Or just what I want to see?"

- Kings of Convenience

This is a story

There are lots of way to Rome, indeed, but in the end we still need a visa to go there.
Moving forward is tiring. Running away is also tiring. So why we often choose the later ?
No matter how far you go, the problem is still there. No matter which direction you choose, the problem will always be there.
Have a faith with your destination. Have a faith with yourself.
You want to move forward? Face the problem, and that means you've made your biggest step.
To solve the problem, that's another story. 

got paid from GA.. :D

#jengjengjeng there it goes.. First paid from my sweat.. hahahag.. Sure that i'll keep continue to do it as a Body Combat instructor. Thanks all for the support friends.. Love you guys so much and also my GA members, love your energy day by day.. you're great.. Keep It Real And Stay With The Fight.

few days trip to jakarta_05

Yoossshh it's my last day at Jakarta., my flight was at 3pm.. *sigh* i was thinking that i don't want to go back to my hometown.. :) It seems that i still don't satisfied with what i had for these short trip... :D
Oukay..., before going to the airport, we stop by to Ikkousha, Muara Karang area to have a lunch. This is the best ramen i'd ever taste, the soup was so delicious.. *thumbs* when i get back i shud have this kind of ramen again.. i'm addicted.. :D

several things i bought to my hometown is only Red Velvet Cake and some cookies from Starbucks.. :)

Ramen Pork Tamtam - Ikkousha

Red Velvet Cake - Sbux

Chocolate Chips / Oatmeal Raisin Cookie

few days trip to jakarta_04

Ugghh.. one of my fave menu.. BAKMI GM.. hahahag... at last at last... love the "Pangsit Goreng" for sure.. crunchy and delicious.. 4 thumbs up if i had to do.. hahahag...

Bakmi GM

Pangsit Goreng

After having quick breakfast, we head to Orchardz Hotel to attend my cousin marriages. They held "tea pay" ceremony over there.. Done the ceremony, me and my cousins continue to have a lunch at Chung Gi Wa Restaurant. Damn my phone went off, battery drained so fast, i shud have charged it overnight., miss to take pic from the food i order.. Well what i'm going to say is the taste of the food is good, the Yangyom Galbi, Kimchi also the Pork.. hahahaag it's good :).. i give it 4 from 5.., still worth it with you'll had to pay. 

That's it what i had for the meals. And errrmmr for the dinner we attend my cousin wedding party at Orchadz Hotel. Nothing special for the menu, except the Kambing Guling.. ^_^ *meatagain* :p

few days trip to jakarta_03

Heeeeyyy.. it's saturday.. pailak me arr... not too much schedule for today. i just want to do Body Combat at Celfit-Puri.. :) feel the energy over there... wwhoooaaa.. one word "different" from what i had at Celfit-SunPlaza. thumbs up for the members over there.. d^_^b

After class, my cousin's drive me to October Feist, Pantai Indah Kapuk area to have dinner. He said that their special menu is Pork Belly, so we had it at that night. and it is, taste so good and the skin from the Pork Belly was so crunchy, also the Pork Knuckle, Porkcorn and Sate Babi are taste so good.. want to have it again and again.. sluurrrpppp.. You'll do love it if you like to eat meat.. Guarantee!!!!!!

here is the place "October Feist"

Pork Belly+Roasted Potato - October Feist

Pork Knuckle+French Fries -October Feist

PorkCorn - October Feist

Sate Babi - October Feist

Finish all of those, we continued to Pan & Barrel and had desserts., what i order was a Red Velvet Cake. Taste good to me since i'd never taste it before but my cousin told me that there's another place which has this kind of cake too at Union. errrrmm curious a bit and we're try it for tomorrow.. hahahag..

Red Velvet Cake - Pan & Barrel

end of today trip.. :D

few days trip to jakarta_02

and taaddaaaa touch ground at Jakarta and head for late lunch at Tekko, Pantai Indah Kapuk area. Look look this is my lunch set menu.. LoL.. not too much aite.. :p

Iga Penyet

Nasi Goreng Iga Penyet

Es Cincau Kelapa

i'm so full after had all of these... fiuhhhhhh *elus"perus* but after 2 hours i had my fave burger again at Burger King, Whoooooppppperrrr.. :D and a mini set from Hokben.

ekkado + egg chicken roll + salad + rice  

going to Central Park, meet my fellas over there and having a good time with my friend, chit chat, lot of laugh, etc while we having burger again.. lol.. but this time we had it from Carl's Junior..

Beef Teriyaki (promo) buy 2 get 1 Chicken Burger

Beef Teriyaki

so it's enough for today meal.. it is so delicious and my perut still no BUNCIT.. hahahag

few days trip to jakarta_01

ahhh... sitting over here at bucks having a cup of Hojicha tea jelly and waiting for my flight.. hope it don't get delayed la.. taste so good while waiting.. hahahahag

rubiks cake ??

who can make one of this..?? #anyone :D

from few weeks to few days.. :D

aaahhh.. going to say that i'm really really like to write some review about the new release for Body Combat 52.. schedule for the release is at 3rd week of June.. #maybe lol..
one thing for sure is you guys shud get ready with ur legs., cause it got lot of kicks.., especially at track 4 and 6. guarantee you'll feel numb at your lower body.

someday :)

"Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."
 - Toni Teider -

bored at your work ??

feeling bored at your work ?? well kill some flies and draw lines with your pen.. :D

awesome aite ?? it is, errmm but on second thought ......

lots of kiya at CF Sun for today

0406 - got class for body combat here at CF Sun Plaza.. my probs here is still the same, got a lil bit pain on my thigh muscle.. *sigh* don't know how long i can endure this.., training program is getting close and i'm not going to miss it..really i want to pass it. today class is a bit fun, lots of members was drewing all their energy out for today.., it's awesome. if i could have some in my class for tom it would be great.. *bigsmile*

make sure

you can be selfish, but make sure it doesn't affect you (& everyone) in a bad way. deal with it.

aim the impossible things

This is what people can do when they aim the impossible things. and they make them happen.

fix it

it's your heart that gives you the feeling, but it's your logic that keeps you from falling. just realize that all these things happened because we're simply being ourselves. want to fix them ? then let's become better.
because the ugly truths are always better than the beautiful lies.

end of may

last day on #may well i close this month with another wish #junewish it is.. still will stick with my resolution, going to pass this BC training program is for sure, i need the bless from you guys.. especially you..
wish you were here pop.

3rd time at GA

2905 - this is my 3rd time at Grand Angkasa.. still using the same track like last week and some of the members was improved. so glad to see that, thou not so many were came into the class, about 14 members but it was fun.. :D
well well well june is coming in a moment, new release is on its way, new moves, new combos, new tracklists..

learn n do more

5 category i shud kept in mind : fitness magic, technique, choreography, coaching and connecting.
arghhh got lack on my fitness *sigh* if i could say so, "my battery drained so fast" also my technique, still need to learn more bout it, geez sometimes i can get to curly and my feet doesn't want to move as i said. bout the choreo... hahahag.. i can missed the bit oo, too fast it is or sometimes i can forgot the combo as well.. :D for coaching and connecting ermmm can't say so much about it., still learning.. :)

BODY COMBAT 52 tracklist

as usual.. the tracklist is on.. :D be ready in few more weeks..


1a: Rain Over Me (Technoposse Remix Edit) – Love Empire
1b: Sexy And I Know It (DJ Shocker Extended Remix) – DJ Shocker feat. Chani
2: Crazy Train – Max Motor
3: When I Close My Eyes (Darren Styles Remix) – Dougal & Gammer feat. Jenna
4: Bring Me To Life (Thomas Petersen vs. Gainworx Remix Edit) – Jan Wayne
5: Passenger (AdF Mix) – DJ Gollum
6: Ring The Alarm – Beyoncé
7: Seek And Destroy – Agent Orange
8: Falling (Breeze Remix) – Breeze vs Barley feat. Taya
9: First Of The Year (Equinox) – Skrillex
10: The Fighter – Gym Class Heroes feat. Ryan Tedder 

i don't know

i don’t know.

stop questioning, because you are the answer.

stop whining, because you are the problem.

stop crying, because you are the wound.

stop doubting, because you are the one who is going to pull the trigger.

stop looking, because you know where to find me.

then let’s start it all over again, from the beginning.

BC session at GACH Medan

hooaaaa.... moaarrnniinnggg.... today got schedule to do coaching at Grand Aston. not many were attend maybe it is too early.. hahahag... walaooeee.. schedule was meant to start at 7.30am but delayed till 8.10am, got several troubleshooting at audio problem. i only use 5 track including cooling down for today, 1-give me everything, 2-kungfu fighting, 3-what's up, 4-black pearl, 5-breath easy. the participants was so excited but some of them were like craving for help.. lol.. but i like it.. keep it up astonished. i'll see you guys again..

variations

it's bullshit to think of friendship and romance as being different. no they're not. they're just variations of the same love. variations of the same desire to be close.

what is on your mind ?

i know i will just swallow those words back whenever i got them on the tip of my tongue, waiting to be said. it feels weird to be myself, knowing nothing about you, but also claiming that i am the man in the world who loves you the most. sometimes you smile and i have no idea what is it that makes you draw such a lovely curve on your face. sometimes you give me a straight face that makes me wondering if i look bad, or if i did something wrong.

i feel silly, i always do. but feelings are silly, anyway. especially something that comes from irrational things. love, it even sounds so stupid whenever people say it carefully, like the world is going to break into seven pieces. now you try to say “LOVE” in front of the mirror and look how silly you are. ….. well of course.

and i, again, jumped into other thing whenever i talk about something else. and i lost my mood to write about the main reason why i write this post.

i want to be able to see things from your point of view. even more, i want to know you better.

until the day

one day, when i am a braver man, i will tell her these things, and then i will look her in the eye tell her i love her and ask her to be only mine. but until that day, we're just friends.

what a day

2205 - not a very good day for me, starting the day early in the morning with a bit embarrassing.. guess what, zipper from my pants was broken and i don't know it till i arrived at office *sigh* not only that, yet again i forgot to bring my wallet too.. ohh holy crap..
well let's forget about that.. hahahag.. ho ho ho *mimic-ingsanta* this is my 2nd time as a trainer at GA. members who was attend were not many, but thanx for several of my great ladies from CF came by and enliven the class. feel so great about that *bigsmile*.. during class i got some accident also, fell down from the stage.. dunno if it's too small or what, but i guess i need to fit myself into that stage.. finally i can wipe off my  nervous for today.. glad glad glad.. :D

dinner time

2105 - got invitation from my friend's wedding at Taipan restaurant. got lot of conversation over there with my gym fellas. blah blah blah and blah.. meeting with old friends also one of my mentor. before the party is on, we're already got ourself busy with photos.. hahahag.. well other people who sees us will thought that we're so narcissistic.. LOL.. hey hey cause we are "celebrity" rotfl.. pose there pose here, making fun etc.
feel so glad when we're gather around, especially with you bunnies. :) i know it hurts as i can see it through your eyes. tough girl you are. :)

'just the three of us'

bunny

this month i feels like being born again.. fill my days with lot of smile and laugh. i would have say that this month i sing a lot. it was all because of you bunny.. :)
0305 - 0505 - 1005 - 1105 - 1605 - 1705 - 1805 - 1905 - 2005 - do you still remember what happen on those day bunny? i still do remember it lo.. *smile*  0505 - 1605 - 1705 has the best moment. sing a lot on those day.. watching movie, rafting, dinner etc.
but these few days lately i don't see you smile perfectly, i know that it must be tough to faced it. knowing that you're heart was still have him made me a lil bit confuse. i don't know if you can feel it or not but i'm asking you to hold my hands. when the pain is too deep and your eyes can't weep. i just want you to know that i'm here for you.

i am

do not stand at my grave and weep, i am not there, i do not sleep, i did not die. i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glint on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain. when you wake in the morning hush, i am the swift, uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight. i am the soft starlight at night. 

miss you

“I miss everything about spending quality times with you, even when it only includes random jokes and pointless chat. I miss talking to you about everything and not being scared nor worried about you judging me, because i know you won’t. I miss you.”