back again after several months..

yohooo.. i'm back again with my blog.. :) miss this part.. the old me have back again.. well... till now i'm still working out to become a Body Combat instructor, though way to reach there. After few months practicing more and more, now i got chance to coach 2 tracks. Need lot of practice to be in this level. Technique - Patience - Ambition - Knowledge - Coaching - How to connect with people., that is what i'd need to learn till now.

No matter how good we are now, but yet we still need more improvement.

every part of you inside my world

sometimes i hear your voice before i wake up in the morning. they always trigger my heart to beat faster, but mostly end up with the empty feeling i have in my chest.

sometimes i see your smile when i close my eyes while trying to have some deep breath. i wonder what spell you put on me so you can easily comfort my exhausted brain with a single face expression. i’m left with a big question mark as a company.

sometimes i imagine your expression when you see my clothes. and well wearing things is not as easy as it was.

sometimes i have you in mind, out of nowhere, and i suddenly feel angry. feels like want to bite your arm. pinch your cheeks. kick your butt and tell the imaginary you to fuck off. i hate to admit how often i have you in mind, i’m upset by my own thoughts whenever i think of you and i know that you don’t do the same. then i feel sad.

sometimes i have you on my wish list. sometimes i put your wish there. your wishes become my wishes.

there are every little piece of you inside my world. you’re a part of it. my favorite part of it.


sk-2011

i could only wish

you can’t have too much wishes, can you?

i’m not going to put this night as something memorable. 1 AM and i’m still struggling to close my eyes, knowing how tired my body is at the moment, yet not being able to sleep. i want to blame it to everything but i ended up blaming myself.

i tried to close my eyes, then some memories of things recalled. about how my days could have been something better. about so many small things i’ve missed for being an ignorant. about the food. about you. and you know i will talk about the last thing i mentioned.

the feeling i have on my chest, something like it wants to get out, it’s always like this when i’m having you in mind. how i feel it’s just plain hard for me to breathe. how every tip of my body is aching for your presence. how i suddenly just can think about you.

i could have laughed at myself for being like those scene in drama. but it can’t be helped anyway, i bet people will do the same thing when they have felt the love so strong like what you’ve been giving to me. the difference is only that i express it exaggeratedly.

i could only wish God ain’t fooling us around.

… uuummm well, not only that. i wish you were here, so i can hug you tighly, lay a kiss on your forehead and wish you good night.

i could only wish.

Won't Last Long

Everything in life is temporary.

So if things are going good, enjoy it because it won't last forever.

And if things are going bad, don't worry. It can't last forever either.

Love Somebody - Maroon 5

Love Somebody - Maroon 5

I know your inside, you're feeling so hollow
And it's a hard pill for you to swallow
But if I fall for you, i'll never recover
If I fall for you, i'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

You're such a hard act for me to follow
Love me today don't leave me tomorrow, yeah
But if I fall for you, i'll never recover
If I fall for you, i'll never be the same

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh

I don't know where to start, i'm just a little lost
I wanna feel like we never gonna ever stop
I don't know what to do, i'm right in front of you
Asking you to stay, you should stay, stay with me tonight, yeah

I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh

You can take me all the way, you can take me all the way

BODYPUMP 83 - SIZZLER

BODY PUMP 83 Tracklist

BODYPUMP 83 tracklist

1. Set it Off – Pimp Dawg
2. Summer Of 69 – Yesterday Affair
3. Turn Up The Music – Chris Brown
4. Set Fire To The Rain – Fizzy Deejay
5. Glad You Came – Toy Hypo
6. Stronger (What Doesn’t Kill You) – Kelly Clarkson
7. Turn The Tide – Manian & Aila
8. C’est Bleu - Scooter Feat. Vicky Leandros
9. When We Stand Together – Nickelback
10. Better Than I Know Myself – Adam Lambert

Bonus 3: Paradise – Psychic Stars

BODYCOMBAT 53 - SIZZLER

it's only a teaser.. :)

BODY COMBAT 53 tracklist

BODYCOMBAT 53 tracklist :

1a: Written In The Stars (Sunny Dee Remix) – Jason Born
1b: Are You Ready For This – Friday Night Posse
2: Rock N Roll All Night – Kicking Import
3: Shine On (Hixxy Remix) – R.I.O.
4: Sweet Dreams – Mislead Lizard
5: True Believer (Styles and Breeze Remix) – E-type
6: Swagger Jagger – Cher Lloyd
7: Blade (Re Con Remix) – Ali Payami vs. Aquagen & Warp Brothers
8: Summer Rain - Breeze vs. Brad Sure Feat Katie Halliday
9: Bangarang – Skrillex feat. Sirah
10: Is Anybody Out There? – Soldier TV

Honestly, I do care

To be honest with you.
I don't have the words to make you feel better.But I do have the arms to give you a hug.Ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about.And I have a heart.A heart that's aching to see you smile again. 

Like a camera

A heart is like a camera capture.

It's hard to manually focus on someone when you open it wide.
But once you achieve it, you know. the rest will become blurred.

Module Training Body Combat

and the day has come 30th June 2012, it's the day i had my Body Combat Training with master trainer Judy King and Robin Sinurat. we got 11 people who'd joined this program. :)

1st day - was the tiredness day.. we're all had to learned about the right technique, throw away all the old habits, testing our fitness. well it is so tired..

2nd day -  all of us got the assessment. I'm going to take track 5 from BC 52. it's a short track but it's challenging as well.. :) Poor me for today, i had a lil injury on my hamstring.. geezzz.. 

3rd day -  the last day, the last assessment, the last drill, the final result. All of us was so tense today.. The tiredness was the Body Combat Challenge ohhh booy, looks like fast and fit class but this one was so challenging.. The last assessment i got was track 6 from BC52, well it is so killing me, fight with my hamstring till i forgot the choreo.. ohh crap.. looks like i'm done, but the end result was I pass as trainee.. yooossssshh.. all my hard work, all of the courage that you guys give me.. it works. Love you guys.